Living in such a crazy world is not as easy as it looks. I try realy ared to maintain the fact that what I talk about has to be moderately funny, but right now, I”m at a crossroads in my life. I have a unique talent for both comedy and writing. I could pursue either of the two, but pursuing both at the same time is completely insane. I’d have to devote more than my share of time to both areas, which would probably lead to me getting burned out. I think I might want to write a novel, well, maybe a short story. Actually, why not a poem? It doesn’t really matter. I’ve just got to finish something. that’s my problem. Finishing things. I’m great at starting things. I can write even twenty pages or more. I even wrote an eighty page book, but then I just stopped writing in it and it’s like if I try to go back, it will mean I have to read it all over again.
Right now I’m in the middle of writing a BI-LO script and also writing a serious book about a man who has completely isolated himself from society. They’re both a work in progress. But the both require different mindsets to write. There is much more dialogue in the BI-LO script than in the book because the guy in my book doesn’t really talk to anyone, ever. But he talks through the book. It’s written in first person, so everything I write is thought through his eyes. I enjoy doing this, although it will take maybe another two to three months to finish this. But I’m flowing with ideas from it, but I can never remember what I’ve already written about this character. It’s a very interesting book so far, to me at least.
The BI-LO script is about the place where I currently work. It is a terrible place to work, and it’s not especially conducive to creativity. But I’m working on turning my world into a script. It’s not my entire world, but it’s an integral part of it. I just want to make a film that people can relate to. Something that they find funny and also very thought-provoking.
I also want to write some short stories about different things. I just want to go deeply into character development and really allow people to get to know the characters I’m talking about. By doing that, I kind of have an advantage. I love detail and things like that, so it shouldn’t be too hard to come up with very interesting characters and dialogue.
Lastly, I want to come out with some kind of book about laziness. Something to the effect where relaxation and meditation are key to being more productive while doing less work. I could talk about the Law of Attraction or something, but I’m not sure that I want to be like everybody else. My main goal is to create something unique, something totally me. Something that can express my inner self directly and indirectly. Not my ego, but my spirit. I know that writing is what I was put on this earth to do, and the comedy will be a nice supplement. I can take it out whenever I feel it is necessary.
I am a big fan of dark comedies. I love them to the point of utter insanity. Two of my favorites are American Psycho and The Cable Guy. Movies that have a great plot and also make you laugh. I love things like that. Especially the dark nature of each. I may write some kind of dark comedy with an insane character that has a profession in fucking up lives. I’m just bursting with ideas right now, but the only problem I’m having is working on all of these things simultaneously. Maybe I should take one project at a time. I’m not sure. The thing is that I don’t know if in ten months if I’ll still be interested in certain projects that I think are good now. I have to keep a running notebook of ideas, which probably means I’ll have to buy a computer keyboard so I can put my laptop further away and put the notebook on my desk and the keyboard below. Never mind. I don’t have to do that. But I am going to try to finish my script and novel about a solitary man. Well, I’ve got to get ready for work now, so I’ll be back some other time.